Jasmine

so... I am kind of through with Seattle right now.
Kind of through with a lot of things. I really want another summer break.

My break was just the best it could possibly be. Making a dress, paddle boating, climbing a mountain, bicycling, "borrowing" a cannoe, being inside Title Wave, seeing midnight showings.... The list goes on and on.

Here is my request to everyone I hung out with over break: Move down to Seattle and keep me company.

haha... Far fetched, I know. My kitten is adorable.

go see Transformers.
right now.

Today my dad and I climbed a mountain.
It was Near Point.
It was fun.
We biked up half way, which sucked.
We biked DOWN half way, which was amazing.
I fell in the mud and cut up my knee. This made me feel younger then I am and I enjoyed that.
I love nature. I love my dad. I love hiking. I love mud.





...After reading this over for spelling errors I realize it sounds somewhat like an ode to climbing.
Feel free to think of it as such.

Last night I had a dream that Mikaila and I got boob implants.

Um... I'm really excited to see you.

ugh.
Working out is hard.
Also, my headphones are busted.

Also... This weekend is a crock of shit.

so... How come no one ever told me to work hard in school at the BEGINING?
Fuckin...
This summer is going to suck huge, nasty bawlz.
But my break will be good.

Remember that one time when...

So, I never fucking update this thing anymore. Mostly because I don't have interent and when I DO have interent I'm busy looking on Craigs List for a cat or transfering files. Grown up stuff.

Speaking of cats, my perfect, sweet, cat Puff passed away about 3 weeks ago, for all of you that have known him and care. He had some complications that can be fixed, but because of his old age (17) he was unable to recooperate.

Um... What else... I am now 20. Which means this live journal has been in existance for quite a long time... 5 years. Jeezus.
School is going okay. Stressful, but okay.
Boyfriend stuff is good.
Apartment stuff is good.
Job stuff is like this: *shrug*.

Anyways... later.

Hey everyone--
Just letting yah know that I'm still alive, though not as frequent of a member of live-journal as I used to be.

...Mostly just SWAMPED with finals. Such is life.

I'm eating a ginger cookie. It's fucking delicious.

Happy St. Patricks Day. I'm so glad there aren't anymore snakes in Ireland.

So... Tonight is my last night in Albuquerque. Maddy is laying by my feet and I cant help but feel sad when I realize this may be the last time I will see her for nearly two year.
Puff is also old. We have to give him an I.V. every night, insulin twice a day, and when he sits you can see him shaking of old age.

Tonight we celebrated the new years early and my mom bought a shit load of fireworks so we lit them off and they were loud and awesome.
I almost got set on fire. And I burnt my thumb.
Fireworks are the COOLEST.

Let's hope I don't get stuck in Denver!

Happy Christmas!
BAAhaha!

Happy birthday to my mum.

The world as I knew it has slipped away.

Now I need to come to terms with it. Seattle is my new home and i will never be able to go back to any life that I had previous to this.
I feel like all of my friends have broken up with me.

I'm im Albuquerque right now. I realized I know four people who live here (I don't really know my family). It's kinda weird.

Anyways, today is my fun day of cleaning the bathroom.

I saw the CUTEST MOUSE EVER yesterday and I want him SO bad, but I don't think you can take mice on airplanes.

grah.
Finals have been going on for two weeks which is just too long.

I am really ready for a break, I am really looking forward to going to Albuqerque, but at the same time I know I'll start to want some alone time soon which is something one is not able to get when living with a family.

Anyways, we've moved back into the GOOD house in Albu. so I'm glad for that.
Also I got some pretty awesome presents for people.

Also, I think I need to stop staying up as late.

Also, last night I had my second wierd dream in a week about TTTLIAT. wtf?

man, you guys.... I miss you!Well, I'm leaving for Albuquerque on the 17th. I'm excited, but miss certain people in Anchorage quite dearly.
call me sometime, fools.

I am the most discouraged I've ever been in my whole life.
I feel so alone and unwanted.
I feel useless and imcompitent.
I feel week.
Used.
Hurt.

I want to rewind. I want to go back to 6th grade.
When my parents loved me, when my heart wasn't broken.
When Easter was my favourite holiday and when all of my hamsters were still alive and healthy.
When I didn't mind rejection.
When I had time to read and play.
When I didn't cry every night because I was too stressed out to do anything else.

I hate who I am right now. I hate most things.

Okay, so... ( Thanksgiving. )

Well, back to school. What a shame.

So I'm really sick of people making excuses. Sure, ever rare now and then there is a validd excuse, like how a couple days ago I woke up 2 hours early to make it to school early and the busses never came. Valid, not my fault or within my control. King County Metro was only to blame.

But saying there isn't enough time is a lie. Saying that you live "oh so far away" is not a good excuse. I'm so sick of all these intricate lies and excuses people use just so that they will never have to see themselves doing ANY wrong. It is as if they imagine that poeple will think they are similar to god if they have everything to blame.

So shut the fuck up, you blamers, liers, decievers, and excusers.
You were wrong. Big fucking deal.

It's true, the apples really are better in Washington.